Dear Sulli, you were not a bad person. You were a bundle of joy to this world. You will be missed.3/4/2020 Dear Sulli, You may have been the little one in f(x) [Korean Girl band]. But, you have made such a great impact on the lives of your band mates and your fans. As I got back to listening to Korean music this year, just after watching Parasite (2019 Korean Film), I decided to go through SHINee's songs. Suddenly, on one of their songs, I saw a comment that mentioned "RIP Sulli"... I was again, confused. So, I searched up "RIP Sulli" on Google, and I went to your Wikipedia page. It showed that you passed away on the 14th of October, 2019. As a human being, I would feel sad that you ended your life. I did not know you well as I did not follow your music as much as I followed Jong Hyun's music. However, as I started to listen to the old songs of f(x), including that of Nu Abo and LA chA TA. I just enjoyed how you were so yourself in front of the cameras and how you were just so... Authentic. I love genuine people like you and can vouch that this world actually needs more people like you. Especially in Chu~♡, you were so cute and it just felt so relatable. The thing I love about you is that you would always let out your energy in whatever you do. You would give your 1000% in whatever you do. You are someone courageous, strong and someone who would just move on and ignore haters. This is the reason why many f(x) fans would look up to you. Because you are a strong, courageous and most importantly, a very beautiful and unique girl inside out. Whenever I would see songs featuring you in the music videos of f(x), it just becomes so hard for me to absorb that you are no more. Honestly, it doesn't feel the same without you. It feels very empty. It feels like my heart has a hole or there is a hollow space inside me that can never be filled up. Even though it has been 142 days (as of 4th of March, 2020) since you left f(x) and this world, I still cannot accept it that you are no more. You were just so full of life and I just enjoyed seeing you all the time, whether it was in new or old music videos. The moment I saw your heart-wrenching and final note, my heart bled. The note read: Today is the 14th year I debuted in the entertainment industry. I was too preoccupied with living my life and nearly forgot how long I am in the industry. But thanks to people who wish me well, I am reminded. Every moment, I am assisted by people to continue living. Due to their blessings, I have the courage to continue living and led me to feel that life is not only to be spent alone. I want to be someone who gives warmth to others and I want to thank everybody. The moment I saw this note, I already knew that you were a pure-hearted woman, who would only wish well for others. I feel sad for good people in this world, who would get mistreated by those around them. I feel sad that they get mistreated so badly that they end up taking their lives. I feel sad that they had nobody to go to for help. And that was how I felt when I heard your final words before you took your life by hanging yourself in your apartment. Sulli, you were often a target by netizens and you got cyber bullied. You were a victim of cyber bullying. People criticised you for being yourself and for being outspoken. When you said these words in your last live show: Why are you saying bad things about me? What did I do to deserve this? I broke down. I cried. My heart was weeping. I had no words. I felt guilty. My dear Sulli, I just want to tell you that you are beautiful the way you are. I love you for you. I love you for everything. I may not have known you well while you were alive, which was sad because I should have gotten to know you. I am regretting that I did not follow your stories and music updates often before. No, you were not a bad person and you will never be. Remember, it is ok to be yourself. It is ok to be expressive. It is not a crime expressing yourself. You were an artist, you are an artist and you will always be a special artist. Artists are supposed to express themselves. You were such a bundle of joy and people will enjoy you for your bubbly nature. It is ok to have feelings. It is ok to have opinions. You are a human being as well. You are beautiful the way you are and I will emphasise on this message an infinite number of times. You were a woman who would fight the break the norms of a K-Pop female star and that was what I loved about you. You are the kind of woman that this world needs. We do not need conservative women who says things like "You will go to hell if you abort your child" or women who bring other women down for posting braless pictures on social media. You have shown us what gender equality is in a sense. Gender equality is about women having the same amount of freedom that men get. Gender equality is about women getting the same leniency that men get OR the society also expecting perfection from men. Gender equality is about men and women not facing any discrimination. You were also a blessing to this world. You were a blessing because you have low-key shown us a new side of what gender equality is. You have shown us that a good human being is not defined by how he or she dresses up or what he or she posts on social media. But, a good human being is someone with good values, a good heart and most importantly, good intentions. Sulli, you did not deserve to die. You deserved to live. You intended to bring unconventional change to make the world a safer place by changing the mentality of people in the society. Like Jong Hyun, I wish that there was someone there with whom you could share your emotions and problems with. I wish that we fans could have done something for you. I should have stood up for you had I known that such things like people writing mean comments happened to you while you were airing your live shows on Instagram. You taught me that I should have the courage to do the things I want to do, provided that I do not hurt people around me and that I do not have ill thoughts. What would be the most important thing is that you have taught us that we should be who we want to be. Women should just break free and be themselves. All we have to care about is whether our intentions are good or not. Actually, let me rephrase that. The most important thing that you have taught us is that if we women want to drink, drink. If we want to colour our hair pink, colour it. What we should keep a check on would be our intentions. And Sulli, you were perfect in your own way. It was really sad that you hanged yourself. I wish you did not do it. Right now, I just want to pray to the Lord and just ask him to bring you back to earth. I want to ask God to let me be a part of your life on a deeper level, to bring you a lot of happiness and shower you with lots of love, care and peace. Sulli, you have inspired many people. You will always be remembered. You will always be loved, adored and accepted by all. ❤️ Now, you are at a better place. You are under the wings of the Lord. With his grace, you will be showered with love, peace and care. You deserve the best. 🕊 Remember, you are an angel, no matter what people say. 👼🏻 You were, you are and you will always be a real beauty to this world, no matter what people say or think of you. 👼🏻✨🕊
🕊🐿🦚🦢 29.03.1994 - 14.10.2019 💔 #ripsulli #choijinri #fxangel #meuforever
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